orenaoforioniii

Computer Fixed

2006-09-09T01:52:08Z

After a full week of fighting with my computer I have gotten everything to work. The VMware never did work, but I found a nice Windows emulation environment called WINE that will run photoshop.

Also, I had a big rant written up that I was going to share for you, but everything I was going to say has been said by someone else in the past. So I leave you with this drastically shortened version instead.

I'm letting this journal go dead. I see no need to share my opinions with anyone, whether that is in real life or the internet. With the amount of opinions being passed around this place you can say far more with silent disapproving contempt. I will continue to run the SFF Art Exchange site because people appear to enjoy it, and I enjoy seeing the art that comes from it. But any other journal, forum, community and other such thing I see no need for what so ever, considering the flame wars, fake suicide whining, emo fests and other social pariahs. Sure, I have friends on here and there are a few people who are not too bad, but with the amount of worthless ranting and flaming for no reason what so ever I see no reason to waste my time trying to find something I actually want to hear about. Unlike most people I actually enjoy solitude to a great degree.

So in closing, a few of you were nice, but the rest please fuck off.

orenaoforioniii @ 2006-09-07T10:30:00

2006-09-07T17:45:48Z

Currently my computer has gone from bad to worse. Before my hard drive filled up and this whole problem began I have a perfectly functional machine running on Red Hat Linux with Windows XP VMware. Next thing I know I try to save a file and the computer tells me there is no room for the saved file on my hard drive. So I go to the store and by a massively larger hard drive because I was lucky enough to find it on sale. And while I was busy putting everything on the computer anyway, I decided to update it with SLED Linux instead of Red Hat. The VMware wouldn't work on the SLED for some reason, even though everything I read up about it said it should. So I turned the situation over to my mother (the resident computer expert) who tried for three days after work to get the VMware running. And for three days I had a perfectly functional SLED Linux computer, but unfortunately with not Windows, which cut me off from 40% of my programs. Which is where I left you on my last journal entry. Now the other day my mom tries again to get the VMware running, and after her breaking point of frustration she decides to put SUSE Linux on instead, which is very similar to SLED but she knows more about that version and thinks she can get the VMware running. But part of the way through installation we find that CD 4 of SUSE has a huge gash on it and won't play in my CD player. So I was left without a functional computer today until my mom comes home from work with a new copy of CD 4.

Rebuilding a computer

2006-09-06T14:52:39Z

My computer is half way through being rebuild, so I can use most of my programs now, except Photoshop which will take a bit longer, but I have GIMP in the mean time. What's really getting to me is I can't get to my saved files yet because they're on a DVD and I need to get new drivers for my DVD player. Oh well, that will get done eventually.

Also I sent my resume into McDonalds. The manager said she was glad that I could work at the time they needed. I have no idea when they will call me, if they decided to call me back. I'm still searching for jobs in other places around town as well, I'm taking a resume to A&P and KFC tomorrow as well.

orenaoforioniii @ 2006-08-26T21:03:00

2006-08-27T01:19:59Z

Wow, I've been away for a while. I got over my cold about two days after I made my last entry. Since then, I've been getting a lot of work dumped on me (and unfortunately it's not the paying kind). Although on that thought I have a job interview with the gas station near my house on Monday, so that's good at least.

Right now I am at my aunt's house, looking after her dog while she's away. And frankly I'm having the worst time of my life. I tried to order pizza for dinner, except the guy from the pizza place couldn't understand what I was saying because my aunt has a crappy phone, so two and a half hours later when I phoned back and asked why my order hadn't shown up yet (and this time I'm calling on my cellphone so I can hear him) he accuses me of prank calling him and that he refuses to deliver the pizza. So I make some Kraft Dinner for supper, except my aunt only has skimmed milk, which didn't react well to the cheese mix and makes something like watery gross cheese soup, which I ate anyway because it was already getting late and there wasn't anything else.

I also brought my mom's laptop computer with me so I can work on my stories and pictures while I'm here. I had to put them on a CD RW though because the laptop's hard drive is tiny. Unfortunately after I save one thing to the CD from the laptop it starts acting all weird and freezing the computer up when it tires to read the CD. So on Sunday when I go home I'll get my mom to look at it. Although I suspect that although the computer itself will be fine I won't be able to get anything off that CD ever again, which really sucks because I wrote a part of my Orion story on it. Luckily, I have all the files before alteration on my computer at home, so I haven't lost the entire story, just about a page or so.

The one thing that is going well is the reason I'm at my aunt's house, as I said already I'm looking after her dog while she's away. And that dog is such a good girl, the one good thing about being here is playing with her.

Don't get the wrong message though, my aunt is a nice person (when she's not pulling practical jokes), and if she were here things would be a lot better. It's just that all the devices in her house are conspiring against me. At least I can still watch TV and use my aunt's computer to go on the internet, even if nothing else works. Well, that's all.

Back from vacation

2006-08-13T21:31:25Z

I'm back from my camping trip, but I'm also sick unfortunately. So I will post my camping photos later when I fee better.

More cats

2006-08-02T22:38:58Z

We got another kitten, like we had been planning to do earlier. My mom was able to finally find one my grandmother likes, it's a lilac pointed siamese cat (although it's not up to breed standards) and it has the same name as my grandmother (Isabella, we call the cat Bella). We've actually had the cat for three days now, I just hadn't gotten around to writing about it here *guilt*

Platforms wars OMG

2006-07-30T18:46:28Z

I am seriously sick of people telling me what programs I have to use. And yes the large companies like Microsoft are the major offenders in this area, but I expect that kind of crap out of them and have learned to ignore it. What really bothers me is when my online acquantences say "OMG you have to use Firefox instead of Explorer or you're a corporate tool who's killing the peace love revolution and I won't be friendzorz with you anymore!!!11!!!1111"
I've actually taken a good long look at Firefox and it is a good program, it has lots of useful features. The thing that's stopping me from using it is the fifty million people online saying you're the uber kool if you're using Firefox and we're too important to talk to anyone who doesn't.

The whole point to creating GNU software (if you don't know what that is or that Firefox is part of it then I seriously suggest you look it up) is to give people a choice other then just using the large company products that are over saturating the market, and to give people the freedom to edit and distribute software of their own creation. The most important idea of this all is choice and it's not a choice any longer if you are surrounded by vacuous minded people who all insist you use their favorite pet program and won't give you a chance to decide for yourself. If you are going around saying that all the cool people are using some freeware program they found on the Internet and you're not part of the special friends group if you don't use it then you're really not being any different then the large companies that these programs were created to protest against. And there are other freeware Internet browsing programs out there, like Konqueror, and yes Firefox may have some extra toys on it that Konqueror doesn't, or Explorer, Navigator, Opera or Safari for that matter, but if someone wants to use them anyway it's their choice to do so and none of your God damn business.

So take a good long while to think about what you are doing when you tell someone it's right to only use one sort of program like Firefox. Because if you're forcing you're friends to 'fight the machine' out of what ever idiotic guilt trip you come up with when they aren't interested, or for that matter they may already be doing in a different way and you don't realize it, then you really have not learned anything. Remember, it's all about giving people a choice.

Arts

2006-07-28T20:06:09Z

Because not everyone who watches my journal watches also watches me on FA as well as to just draw some extra attention to my journal, here's some of my recent art.

Not Safe for Work

Also not safe for work

family troubles

2006-07-25T22:15:59Z

My grandmother is a spoiled, whining 4 year old trapped in an adult's body. Anytime she doesn't get exactly what she wants, even if we (me and mom that is) go out of our way to please her she takes a temper tantrum. We're trying to get another cat right now. At first my grandmother was all for the idea, she didn't really care which cat we got either. Then she sees this one white cat that she obsessed over, and it wasn't really one we wanted to adopt either, but my mom said that we would consider it with the other cats we were looking at. So the next day we find out that the cat my grandmother liked had been adopted from the shelter. She takes this big hissy fit about how we have too many pets already and that she already spends all day cleaning up after them. Just a note, I clean the house as part of my enforced chores and my mom feeds the cats and cleans out their litter, my grandmother is always running off to her friend's house after work and is hardly ever home, so no, she isn't cleaning anything. I find another cat that's the same age and color as the one she liked but she still said no and she didn't want any cat now, even though it wasn't going to be her cat anyway, it was going to be a second cat for my mom.

Unfortunately this isn't the first time my Grandmother has reacted like this, it happens on a frequent basis. Almost any topic you can think of she has reacted similarly to, camping, buying a lawn mower, even what toilet paper brand we are supposed to use.

Tire slashing

2006-07-19T03:53:52Z

Someone slashed the tires on my mom's car while she was at work. It's not the first time something bad has happened in that parking lot. Last year someone peed on her car. And cars are constantly getting broken into or vandalized there. It's in a bad part of town. Also, she works at the Social Services office so they have all sorts of low lifes coming in there. The welfare clients aren't too bad, the worst people are the ones there to pay fines to the town. There are also court houses across the parking lot, so their clients are around as well.

So yet another pathetic example of the stupidity humanity causes for each other. Hey, lets go slash random tires on cars owned by people we've never met.

Went Kayaking

2006-07-17T03:03:47Z

I and my mom went kayaking for the first time on our inflatable kayak. We just went around an island in Rice Lake (no real sea voyage there XD). It was amazing how much wild life we saw, people in motorboats are missing a lot, especially when they are trying to untangle their motor from the weeds and we just paddle by (that happened too, we waved to them just to rub it in too). The amount of weeds in Rice Lake is amazing as well, actually a little scary, there really isn't much open water left. Even though we can paddle through the weeds its more work and we tried to stay in open water. My arms felt like they were going to fall off after though, and I got a bad sun burn. But in all it was a lot of fun.

Things I saw:

Turtle
Frog
King Fisher catch a fish
A colony of Cormorants
Catfish
Mother duck with babies following her around
Blue heron

New Art

2006-07-15T21:02:24Z

I'm putting this here for everyone to see (not in a private journal entry in other words). I didn't know how people on FA would feel about an anime picture, I know that I'm allowed to upload it there but these days people on FA get irate whenever they see something not furry.

He's Seraphi, a character from a story idea I've been thinking about lately. More on the story when it develops later.

Also I can finally draw anime, I've been trying unsuccessfully for a long time. Before I could make anime eyes but they looked like they were just stuck on a normally drawn character.

Fashion too far

2006-07-12T19:28:15Z

This will either make you LOL or your brain explode. Video Belt

I live, I'm back

2006-07-06T02:19:08Z

Man, I've been neglecting this place, haven't made a journal entry in too long. I've looked after my club and all that, but have just ignored the actual journal.

I have a bunch to say. First off, my shoulder hurt real bad when I got up this morning. It doesn't hurt continuously now, just when I move it the wrong way, but it's still annoying. I must have slept on it wrong, I hope it's better tomorrow.

Also, if the weather holds up me and my mom are going to the Toronto Zoo tomorrow, so I will have plenty of animal photos to show you.

The other day I and some of my friends from Port Hope tried to go swimming. Usually I just see these people occasionally, we don't hang out that much. (I'm a moody sarcastic hermit, completely lacking in any empathy, I don't really hang out with anyone.) but they were offering a free ride to the beach, and it was hot enough that just sitting in the water would be nice. So I went with them. The first place we went was Cobourg beach, which is sort of like Oshawa beach only smaller(if you know what Oshawa beach is like it will give you an idea of crappy it was there)it was very over crowded and it smelled like dead fish and sun tanning lotion. So next we went to Squirrel creek, which had a bunch of people swimming in the river, despite clearly marked "Do not swim, Bacterial contamination" signs posted. So we left that place too. We were going to try Serpent Mounds, which has a small swimming area, but it costs to get in and there was a large storm coming so we went home. When I got home I found out the storm was a super-cell. And a funnel cloud started forming in the field behind my house. This has happened before, but it was still nerve racking. Luckily, it never touched ground and moved on to Cobourg. Although I heard on the news that Bewdley (north of Port Hope) did have a full tornado.

orenaoforioniii @ 2006-06-24T01:19:00

2006-06-24T05:25:52Z

Dear Muse,
Where is my art skill tonight?

Also my sketch book is quickly disintegrating, both covers fell off, the coil in the middle is unraveling and the pages are slowly falling out as the coil unravels.

And I had a weird but cool dream last night, I was a super hero (ya, I'm lame like that) but my powers changed depending on what costume I put on. I had at least five, but the only ones I can remember now was a reddish one where I could fly and a yellow and black one that made me invisible.

A reply finally

2006-06-23T15:46:17Z

It appears the person who was going to steal my character designs (and yes, it was stealing even though he says its fair) says since I'm going to be so "paranoid" about the situation that he won't use the design. Although I don't take well to being insulted, he call me childish and said I over reacted even though he originally told me he was going to steal my character, how the fuck am I supposed to react! Am I supposed to bend over and say have at it, and while your at it steal Orena's design as well?!

But possibly the most infuriating thing he said of all was that I stole Sables design from various characters on PlayStation games. I did not, first of all I came up with the pattern without any reference, it really is my own creation. Secondly I don't even play video games, as my friends can attest to I royally suck at them, I can't get past the first level of Spyro, so there is little to no chance of me buy, playing, looking up or being in any way interested in the games with the characters he accused me of stealing Sable's design from. Don't accuse someone of art theft when you got fucking CAUGHT for it yourself! I didn't reply to his notes on FA, since I don't want to get in a flame war with this idiot since he obviously has nothing intelligent to respond with. But I did pass on all the information about this situation to the admins after he finally replied, let them deal with him.

So ya, I'm glad he's not going to use the design now, but I'm still pissed about how he insulted me.

But this is why you'll never see any of my half decent art anymore. This is why all you will ever get from me is smut that quite frankly is even disgusting me these days, and you won't ever see my Changelings or Orion pictures any more. It's because of him and the realization that there are far more people like him still out there waiting to attack, whether they steal my art or wrongfully accuse me of doing the same. I have over 300 people watching me on FA, and approximately 10 that I trust, that's not a good ratio.

So why the hell should I keep listening to the people who whine when I take my art down and why should I bother putting it back up? And don't say it's because not everyone is like this person, because even if they aren't there are still too many like him to make it worth my while. I don't want to be known purely as a smutpedler (I don't mind if I have that on the side, but I don't want it to be my only thing) but A. no one but my friends care about seeing anything else, and B. it the only thing I care so little about that I won't mind if it got stolen. I remember when drawing used to be fun, those days have long since died, now I really would rather work.

This is awesome

2006-06-15T00:16:46Z

Watch this video http://eepybird.com/dcm1.html

Seriously Pissed about Art Theft

2006-06-14T14:22:16Z

Today someone told me that they are going to use one of my character designs for a video game. They didn't ask me if it was alright, they didn't ask for permission. They just came up to me and said 'I'm taking it!' Seriously, what kind of socially retarded, morally incompetent idiot thinks this is appropriate, much less legal?

My characters are my own original designs, and I am entitled to my own intellectual property. Not to mention art is automatically considered copyright to its owner. But I will still be going to the copyright office to get my character officially copyrighted.

Back on FA

2006-06-11T15:30:46Z

Well I'm settling back into FurAffinity. I don't know if that was a great idea, but everyone else is happy. And from personal experience I know that no matter what decision I make I'm never happy after a few days.

Anyway, on a more positive note, I'm making this big picture for my Photoshop class and it's turning out really well. I'll post when I'm done, depending on how close to class time I finish it that will either be Monday or Tuesday.

More things to finish:
DAX exchange
FAX2 exchange
Draggy's char sheet
Sketch for Patches
Pick for Shira and Kraken

Believe it or not, this is a short list for me.

Shadowness no go

2006-06-08T03:45:56Z

Well I tried out Shadowness and after half an hour I don't like it. I submitted two of my pictures and the first comment I got was "I'm not really into the bright colorful thing". That's nice, but as this person failed to notice I put the 'comment but don't critique' warning on my comments that they obviously failed to notice. I don't mind if they're not into my style but please don't share that factoid with me and go look at something they are interested in. Now I would have just thought this one person was a long ass, if it were not for the fact that within fifteen minutes I received three other messages from different people (one was even an admin) that all had similar content, the 'you're art isn't good enough but we're going to tell you in that snide, over pretentious and polite way'.

I really don't like this attitude of people need to tell everyone what is wrong with their art. I have improved greatly in the two and a half years I have been drawing and submitting things to the Internet, and I plan to continue improving. And I have done this without constant criticism, in fact the criticism has done more to put me off then encourage me. What I like is when people discuss the good things about my art, or at the very least when people listen to the warning tags put on comments!

Pic for Vickshb

2006-06-07T00:08:33Z

Here is something I made for vickshb for his birthday http://www.hidebehind.com/DD95E4C
I figured I'd put it here as well so everyone else can see it.

Also the gums around my wisdom tooth is infected again. I have a dentist appointment near the end of the month. If the infection goes away before then I will have the tooth pulled, if not I will just get more pills and wait for next month.

orenaoforioniii @ 2006-06-04T14:44:00

2006-06-04T18:45:38Z

Sorry for taking fit the other day. Some things have been getting to me.

Also, here is my picture for wereguitar
http://www.hidebehind.com/2DD81EF4

orenaoforioniii @ 2006-06-03T20:12:00

2006-06-04T00:30:00Z

I have opinions, and things I want to share. Things I want to state to everyone. Things that need to be said. But I won't because the internet is no place for intelligent people to be saying anything. It is nothing but a net for gathering ignorant responses, flame wars and general idiotic behavior.

I don't know why I bother with people. I really don't give a shit what anybody else thinks.

I'm disgusted by how I need people to look at my art, it makes me week.

orenaoforioniii @ 2006-06-01T11:25:00

2006-06-01T15:31:08Z

Yay, I feel better now. A good night's sleep cleared everything up. My sun burn still hurts when I poke it but at least it's not draining away all my energy.

A mem thing I stole from Patches

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you

Drained

2006-06-01T00:31:22Z

I'm sun burned, I'm tired and I'm drained. I just feel like mud. And to top it off I can't draw anything tonight, I think I burned myself out the other day doing too much. I have no energy left. I have ideas for what I want to draw and I owe people stuff too, but tonight, I can't get the look or the composition right, and I don't have the energy to finish anything.

I'll post something more meaningful tomorrow.